Guest Blog by I.J. Makan I had been working on my thesis on the problem of evil and the existence of God when we found out that Kazingy had some rare heart diseases, and this was when the problem of evil became a very real problem for me. But it was not quite evil that … Continue reading The Problem of God in the Face of Evil
A word to the wise: when someone is grieving the loss of their baby, the worst and most inappropriate thing to say is, "You'll have other babies". It boggles my mind a bit that people would think that this is an appropriate form of sympathy but we've had it happen on a number of occasions … Continue reading A Different Kind of Loss
On December 10, 2017 at 8:30 am, I.J. and I went to the hospital because I had not felt the baby move since the morning before. When the nurse came in to monitor the baby's heartbeat and couldn't find it on the first try, we knew he was gone. She tried about 7 more times … Continue reading Kazingram Ikranrin Makan
IJ and I went to CHEO (Children's Hospital of Eastern Ontario) for another echocardiogram today. Our last appointment had gone well at the General Hospital two weeks prior and they were happy to see that the baby did not have any blood or fluid pooling around his heart. We were encouraged by this news. Today, … Continue reading 31 Weeks
It's been a while since I've written a post. Mostly because I've been feeling so exhausted after work (third trimester fun) that I can't think of anything to write about. It came to my mind today that I never wrote a blog about what IJ and I have decided for our next steps and so … Continue reading Making a Choice
The other day I was talking with my mom on the phone and - as what is normal in most of our phone calls - the conversation got a bit choppy every now and then. Sometimes the line would get cut altogether but this time it froze on my end but her end was fine. … Continue reading I’m Still Here.
It's hard work to keep praising God. Sometimes I just don't have the energy left in me to do it. Sometimes I just plain don't want to. Last night was one of those nights. I felt so annoyed as so many thoughts swirled around in my head. So many people have said that God must … Continue reading Then I Felt Annoyance.